I am going to double verify to see exactly what my side effects of my medications are. Weird thing is, I've been on them for about 5 months, and just now experiencing them? Whilst this time of lack of sleep, I am also getting headaches often, which I never had before, and I have a stomach ache in the evening time. Everyday. WTF?
Thankfully I'm still a happy camper, but the 'need to know everything and why' mentality of my personality wants answers, pronto. I don't like not knowing things. I kind of see this as not liking to be vulnerable, actually that is exactly how I feel. I find that triggers a lot of my anxiety, the not knowing.
I had a great great session with K the other day. We were very in depth, and I very much like her therapy style, she opens up new ways of seeing past my behaviors, getting down to the thought process step by step ultimately resulting in how I ultimately show a certain emotion/feeling. I also dropped by Borders, and picked up Wasted that I ordered. I'm not that far in and already I'm hooked. She has a way of writing that is so blunt and honest. Things in my head never said to anyone, sometimes not even my therapist. Not on purpose, just things I have forgotten about how my Ed made me think/act. It's amazing that I accepted some of the traits/actions/behaviors as my own, when really it was what my Ed did to stay alive. Boy I was more fooled than I thought.
Love to everyone!