Thursday, March 26, 2009

Recovery

I have been at work almost an hour, and its been dead so far. This month of March I've done poorly with commission and I'm convinced it's because this month of the year is always wacky for me. February I kicked ass-beating the other part timer who's been here 8 months.

Read blogs yesterday, threw out a few comments. I don't mind whether I get a comment back when I comment of course, I enjoy the benefit of of speaking my mind to another persons views, whether relating or otherwise which is often helpful for them and myself. I'm behind on responding to those who have commented on my posts as of late, which I don't know if I'll get to, but I'm working on that. Having an ongoing conversation after the fact, gets my mind working more on recovery. Feedback of any kind helps tremendously.

Not too much action otherwise. I was very humbled yesterday and E spoke her truth about where she has been with recovery. With that I need to admit is that, I had been using the scale (decided today it needs to go) browse websites for thin images, and some isolation and attempts to protect my Ed)

So, thank you E. It's a reminder I not only need to be honest to myself, but to everyone as well to move forward in recovery.

6 comments:

  1. Yep, E inspired me to be a bit more honest too. A fantastic woman, she is.

    Sorry to hear that work is boring--I hate it when that happens.

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  2. I *think* I know who you are talking about...

    This road is not easy, is it? If it were, we wouldn't grow along the way.

    love,
    e

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  3. Yes, self-honesty is the key...something I had such a hard time with when I was in my 17-year struggle with the ED. I'm all for throwing the scale out, as well as looking for thinspiration. That's the ED saying, "Hello, remember me?" Tell it to shut the F up. You don't need it. It is a waste of time...and merely a distraction for what you'll eventually have to face anyway. Good job!

    Take Care,
    Greta
    http://www.lifewithcakeblog.blogspot.com

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  4. Hey Sarah,

    Just found your blog and wanted to say hello. I'm looking forward to reading more.

    Elle

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  5. Hi Sarah - just wondering how you're doing...I miss your posts!

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  6. i am so with you on the honesty...never can get better if i am living a waking lie my entire life because i will never be free!

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