Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Praying to God

I don't know what to think or do at the moment.

My boyfriend M hasn't been feeling well the past couple of days, cold like symptoms, then a sore throat yesterday. He felt much better today, and then suddenly he could barely breathe and his chest hurt. Collectively in the past he has collapsed his lungs (both once), and today at work the ambulance came and got him. He thinks one has collapsed again and I'm on the verge of crying and don't know what do to-and right now I can't do anything since I am at work, and running the store by myself. By the grace of God the store is empty for the time being.

I have a million scenarios running through my mind, thinking its nothing, to that he has a condition that will be there forever. Every time he gets a cold, will it spread to his lungs and send him in an ambulance?

Arggggh, I just want to be at the hospital with him!

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Quick Update

I've been so all over the place, in a good sense I suppose, to be committing to blogging lately. Camping, outings, added work hours, and not much sleep, I've kind of put of writing and reading, which I've really missed. It just gets to the end of the day, and the choice comes to either blog or pass out, I've opted for sleeping. I can't blame myself.

Eating wise things are great. I'm staying away from trigger foods, and not isolating myself when upset. I read a very interesting article about food addiction last night, and tomorrow I'll post my thoughts as well as a link to it.

I went out to the ocean today and A and her friend (which is her brothers gf), and she convinced me to wear sunscreen. I have not been keeping up my tan, which I am usually quite dark, in almost a year. I really wanted a tan today, and she said the sunscreen would not stop me from tanning it would only protect me from getting burnt. She was right. I'm soo glad I used it!

I hope and pray everyone is well, and will get across to all your blogs soon. Love to you all!

Friday, July 3, 2009


Talk about a rough morning! I woke up super early, around 630am, to go out and start my day. I was going to go to the nearest town, pick out my hair dye, come home dye my hair, pack for M's, get ready for the day. My next stop was out to Starbucks, shopping for things I needed & some food, then nails done, and work at 1pm.

I went to check my account, and, no money! My paycheck was not direct deposited like it should be. I was more than livid. I called my boss, and got the number for his boss to see what was up. I guess on Wednesday he waited too late and couldn't get the payroll deposited on time, so checks would be in at work today. Problem is, I'm completely broke, even my credit card is maxed. So the only place I'm making it to next would be the gas station. M is going to try and deposit my check for me, if the bank lets him. I called him and was balling my eyes out, because on top of all that, my neck feels worse than it did when I got in the car accident a couple years back. I was just sleeping on the couch this morning and woke up to excruciating pain.

He calmed me down and said that we'll find a way, and that the day will get better and he loves me. He said even to leave work once our boss leaves and do what I want. I'm just so bummed, but I'm accepting it. My neck is starting to feel better, I took some meds for it. Shit like that, especially neck pain scares me...

Hope everyone enjoys their fourth, and that you won't be rained on!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Celebrity Morph

MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celeb

Just did this, and I thought I'd be able to pick a celebrity to morph into, but it does it by face recognition, and either way, I was going to chose Sarah Michelle Gellar! Too funny!

Still Awake

I'm getting into a probably not so good habit-of staying up real late. I've got work tomorrow 11am to 7pm, and then Friday off, as well as Saturday for 4th of July. M and I are going to go to a friends cabin on the lake for a get together and fireworks, and I'm so excited. We both do work at the same company, and share a lot of the same hours, but outside of work we have not had much together time. Lately its just been short visits, usually involving a couch to lounge on, resting our eyes, or me getting a foot rub from him. Work lately is exhausting, and when you add the fact that 21 out of 30 days of June here have been rain, outside activities have been missed. We still want to get out to do strawberry picking, and we've planned a day at the ocean on one of his vacation days. On a side note, I've been wanting to clean and vacuum my car, but all this rains made it not possible. I'm praying for sun!

This Friday I am going to get my nails filled, they've been on for a month now and have held up awesome. I've also been browsing online at L'oreal for a new hair color. I'm aiming for something lighter, more blondish, while still having some copper brown tones it already has. I need to give $100 to M to put into our joint savings account, which will be going for our new apartment, aiming to be in by the end of October. I'm lost for words on how happy I am with M, and we are so excited to be going to start our lives together in our own home.

When you read this M, I just have to say, I LOVE YOU, with all my heart, and cannot image my life without you being part of it. Thank you so much for being there and your willingness to support me in every way I need, without judgement and loving me nonetheless.

"You're my babe."