Monday, February 22, 2010


I havent been writing lately. Reason #1 Laptop is dead. Long story short, HP made a faulty product and failed to inform their customers, and created an unfair extended warrantee, which mine falls two months shy of 'qualifying' EVEN though the executive case manager confirmed the computers, like mine, were being made and shipped months before, that to date don't fit in their 'warrantee span.' Two days of calling this man, argueing, and talking to others I will be calling the Maine Attorney General, specifically to the Consumer Protection department to get this remedied. I did not spend $900 to have the motherboard DIE because they fucked up, 2 years and 2 months later...yes for real this is the 'short story.'

Reason #2 I've been not in a good space. Mentally and physically. Why is it that I feel I should sit in this misery? I really don't want this kind of life, the loathing of my body and wanting to scream. I've been in an extremely aggitated mood and feel everyone is against me. I want my eating disorder back, but only parts of it. I'm reading Perfect Girls, Starving Daughters, which is a must read, and I feel torn about who I am. I know what I feel in my heart, what kind of life I wanna live, but all around me others contradict the authentic kind of life. Its about looks, being perfect and making it appear effortless. Its hard not to believe this because its so embedded in everyones head including mine.

I feel Im always against myself in order to get control of myself. Sigh....


  1. That is such a bummer about the lap top. In this world we work hard for the things we have and to get screwed over by the makers of the product is not fair. I hope that you can get somewhere on that. Hang in there with everything else. Ups and downs. Yep that's life.

  2. It's good to have you back in blogland, but sorry to hear you're having a tough time at the moment...I know what you mean about wanting an authentic life, with real happiness, when society seems to be telling us something different...

    And for the record, I HATE HP! Every single item I have had from them has broken or failed in some dad works for them actually...rather him than me.

    Hope today is a better day for you :-)

    Sarah x

  3. I bought an HP about 2 yrs ago and it bit the dust too. I HATE the thing. I wonder if it's the same model. I had nothing but problems with it from day one. Which one do you have and is there anything that can be done??

  4. I don't know if my comment went through, but I had a dumb HP and it crapped out on me in less than a year. Got it 2 yrs ago.

  5. Glad your laptop is fixed. I had the same issue with my crapped up HP. Argh.

    Anyway I hope that you start feeling better soon! Take care of yourself.

  6. i am very un-computer-savvy soo i have no advice. i got my laptop through a deal at work and mine is a dell and i only got it because it came with a alright i guess

    you better get your lil booty in gear and read you some buddha! always makes me get to thinking positively!

    ps- thanks for the comment! great to know there are likeminds out there!!!!

  7. Hi Sarah, I just discovered your blog! (I'm new with blogging, LOL.)

    I just wanted to tell you I can feel with you, because this is where I come from as well, and it's a very long way to get out of it! I wish you all the best!